(Issue 72) Insomnia

Insomnia. There are several reasons to this cause; work stress, financial stress, peer pressure or ,like several others mine is due to, missing someone badly. But mine has a strong mixture of sweetness in it.

Today is only our second night apart, and this isn't our first time being apart from each other, however the days and nights are slightly different from the other time. It's my turn to sleep alone in that huge bed and the room seems to be colder than usual. Deep inside me was mixed feelings. I feel lonely but sweet at the same time because I know he loves and misses me as much.

We know that we have each other in our hearts, strong and burning bright. But it is the need to feel his touch that refrain me from having a good night sleep. Nothing beats the warmth he provide.

I still remember the first time when we were apart. I have to attend my work duty in China for two weeks. During that period, we communicate thru MSN Video Calls and Overseas Calls. I try to complete my job ASAP so that I can cut short the trip, and I gladly managed to. Work schedule was packed and tiring but definitely sweet, as I know my ultimate goal is to surprise him, by returning to Singapore the night before his KL trip. It was the goal that makes me feel his strong presence beside me all the time, and I tried make him feel the same with surprise MMS pictures and videos (I hope it did).

The second time we were apart was when I had to fulfil my NS Reservice duty. It's the pictures in my phone and the nightly phone calls that put the smile on my face. But nothing beats his sudden surprise for me on my Night's Off.

Calen, I love you deep from my heart. You never never fail to put a smile on my plain looking face and keep my imperfect soul warm.

Coming into terms with Me (missing you so much), (being able to relate) Myself (to the lyrics of the Micheal Bolton song) and I (can't wait for him to return,hee)

Singing to my latest lullaby: Michael Bolton - Missing You Now

I talk to you but it’s not the same as touchin’ you
And every time you whisper my name, I wanna run to you
We’ll be together, it won’t be long, it won’t be long
But it feels like forever, and it’s hard to be strong

Baby ’cause I’m missing you now
And it’s drivin’ me crazy
How I’m needin’ you baby
I’m missing you now
Can’t wait till I’m alone with you
To show you how I’m missing you now

Wishin’ you were here by my side is all that I can do
Got my arms around my pillow at night, they should be
Holdin’ you
Thought I was stronger, how could I know, how could
I know
I can’t take this much longer, it’s so hard on my soul

Baby I just can’t wait, till I see your face
Chase away this loneliness inside
When you’re close to my heart, right here in my arms
Then and only then, will I be satisfied
I’m missing you now
We’ll be together, it won’t be long, it won’t be long
But it feels like forever, and it’s hard to be strong