I love reading books and articles on body lauguage, mainly because I believe that you can analyse a person more accurately through his subconcious actions. Despite my knowleadge, I had been constantly repremended for having poor Body Lauguage myself.
Now that I am aware, I am determine to change them. I told everyone to remind me whenever they notice, because it has already been a habit and it is hard to kick within days, weeks or maybe even a month.
The most obvious is my standing posture. I hunchback. This posture display a person's lack of confidence and low self-esteem, and when we look at a health point of view, I may have to grow old with a fixed and unsightly posture I would greatly regret.
Then it is my seating posture, when I get too comfortable, I tend to get too laidback, almost to a lying down posture. No wonder, I do have quite a lower back ache problem. I can feel it coming. The worst thing is being lactose detorlerant, I can't get calcium directly from milk.
Third, which is very bad, is that I can't give full attention to the speaker. I have a habit to wonder around and notice the things happening around me. Surrounding actions grap my attention easily. And at the age of 28, I couldn't believe the comments that were/are directing at me. The most recent comment was,"You are more "aunty" then my mother".
To the speaker, I am dis-interested. To me, I am multi-tasking & curious (lame excuse?) I always tell them that I use my ears to listen and my eyes to see. Presently, I have taken this into serious thoughts, and agree that my actions are a disrespect to the speaker, and maybe to Calen, I am cruising at other guys.
Today, I shall admit, I am cruising, but that beautiful bags, accessories, hairstyles, clothes and etc, because of my passion/love/desire to be a designer, and my eye for luxury/charming items. It's not the guys, and if you notice, mine attention is more attracted/disractted by girls dresses and portrait herself.
These three are the main three habits, I am more determine to change/kickoff and I am aware of the instant need to. So friends out there, remind me please. Or better still if you have good ideas on how I can work on it, drop me a comment or two.
Coming into terms with (ugly posture) Me, (learning to take better care of) Myself and (for Calen and) I.
Couldn't find a matching song, haa therefore have to change one sentence of the lyrics... 王力宏 - 改变自己
今早起床了, 看镜子里的我
忽然发现我发型睡得有点KUSO
(忽然发现我的身体語言真的很差)
一点点改变, 有很大的差别
Woke up in the morning, and in the reflection of the mirror,
I suddenly realise that my out of the bed hair looks KUSO
(I suddenly realise that my body language is terrible)
A little change can do alot of difference.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Monday, September 17, 2007
(Issue 73) Being Romantic
This is an analysis of my character - "You're a bit of a romantic and like to get back to basics." and I think that it is dangerously true. Is it important to be romantic to constantly add sparks in your relationship? If it is true, I am actually standing at the edge of the building, because I realise that I am quite a "moment killer". I am not sure how Calen really feel after having anticipating for nothing.
Recently when someone ask what is the most romantic thing someone had done for you or vise-verse, I couldn't think of anything. There is no instant answer at my fingertips. For me I prefer to get back to the basics. Inside me, it is more practical to do show your love, care and concern daily with simple yet thoughtful actions. This is what Calen had constantly been offering me. I used to show my appreciation with "Thank You", however slowly I learn that the appreciation can be better express with a kiss or a hug. And can you guess what is even better? Mirroring of actions.
Dear, I am aware that I miss alot of important moments, and therefore gives you lots of opportunity to bring it up once in a while. Hee, I do deserve that. No matter how much I wish to turn back time and do things right, it is impossible. All I can do now is to pay more attention to special occasions and add a little spark.
Coming into terms with (less romantic) Me, (working within) Myself and (gracefully accepting my mistakes/mishaps, haa) I.
Singing to the tune to: Shayne Ward - If That's Is OK With You
If That's OK With You
I love the way that you look without your make up
I had a girl before we met but we broke up
Theres something 'bout you that makes me want to step up
step up and be with you
If That's Ok With You
We'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
cos imma make you feel so good thats how i see it happening
yeah we'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
cos baby i wanna step up and be with you
if thats ok with you
im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna saint your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
I wanna keep your toothbrush at my appartment
Make a second set of keys and ask you to move in
I'm not crazy
I know what im getting myself in
I wanna live with you
If thats ok with you
Recently when someone ask what is the most romantic thing someone had done for you or vise-verse, I couldn't think of anything. There is no instant answer at my fingertips. For me I prefer to get back to the basics. Inside me, it is more practical to do show your love, care and concern daily with simple yet thoughtful actions. This is what Calen had constantly been offering me. I used to show my appreciation with "Thank You", however slowly I learn that the appreciation can be better express with a kiss or a hug. And can you guess what is even better? Mirroring of actions.
Dear, I am aware that I miss alot of important moments, and therefore gives you lots of opportunity to bring it up once in a while. Hee, I do deserve that. No matter how much I wish to turn back time and do things right, it is impossible. All I can do now is to pay more attention to special occasions and add a little spark.
Coming into terms with (less romantic) Me, (working within) Myself and (gracefully accepting my mistakes/mishaps, haa) I.
Singing to the tune to: Shayne Ward - If That's Is OK With You
If That's OK With You
I love the way that you look without your make up
I had a girl before we met but we broke up
Theres something 'bout you that makes me want to step up
step up and be with you
If That's Ok With You
We'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
cos imma make you feel so good thats how i see it happening
yeah we'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
cos baby i wanna step up and be with you
if thats ok with you
im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna saint your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
I wanna keep your toothbrush at my appartment
Make a second set of keys and ask you to move in
I'm not crazy
I know what im getting myself in
I wanna live with you
If thats ok with you
Sunday, September 16, 2007
(Issue 72) Insomnia
Insomnia. There are several reasons to this cause; work stress, financial stress, peer pressure or ,like several others mine is due to, missing someone badly. But mine has a strong mixture of sweetness in it.
Today is only our second night apart, and this isn't our first time being apart from each other, however the days and nights are slightly different from the other time. It's my turn to sleep alone in that huge bed and the room seems to be colder than usual. Deep inside me was mixed feelings. I feel lonely but sweet at the same time because I know he loves and misses me as much.
We know that we have each other in our hearts, strong and burning bright. But it is the need to feel his touch that refrain me from having a good night sleep. Nothing beats the warmth he provide.
I still remember the first time when we were apart. I have to attend my work duty in China for two weeks. During that period, we communicate thru MSN Video Calls and Overseas Calls. I try to complete my job ASAP so that I can cut short the trip, and I gladly managed to. Work schedule was packed and tiring but definitely sweet, as I know my ultimate goal is to surprise him, by returning to Singapore the night before his KL trip. It was the goal that makes me feel his strong presence beside me all the time, and I tried make him feel the same with surprise MMS pictures and videos (I hope it did).
The second time we were apart was when I had to fulfil my NS Reservice duty. It's the pictures in my phone and the nightly phone calls that put the smile on my face. But nothing beats his sudden surprise for me on my Night's Off.
Calen, I love you deep from my heart. You never never fail to put a smile on my plain looking face and keep my imperfect soul warm.
Coming into terms with Me (missing you so much), (being able to relate) Myself (to the lyrics of the Micheal Bolton song) and I (can't wait for him to return,hee)
Singing to my latest lullaby: Michael Bolton - Missing You Now
I talk to you but it’s not the same as touchin’ you
And every time you whisper my name, I wanna run to you
We’ll be together, it won’t be long, it won’t be long
But it feels like forever, and it’s hard to be strong
Baby ’cause I’m missing you now
And it’s drivin’ me crazy
How I’m needin’ you baby
I’m missing you now
Can’t wait till I’m alone with you
To show you how I’m missing you now
Wishin’ you were here by my side is all that I can do
Got my arms around my pillow at night, they should be
Holdin’ you
Thought I was stronger, how could I know, how could
I know
I can’t take this much longer, it’s so hard on my soul
Baby I just can’t wait, till I see your face
Chase away this loneliness inside
When you’re close to my heart, right here in my arms
Then and only then, will I be satisfied
I’m missing you now
We’ll be together, it won’t be long, it won’t be long
But it feels like forever, and it’s hard to be strong
Today is only our second night apart, and this isn't our first time being apart from each other, however the days and nights are slightly different from the other time. It's my turn to sleep alone in that huge bed and the room seems to be colder than usual. Deep inside me was mixed feelings. I feel lonely but sweet at the same time because I know he loves and misses me as much.
We know that we have each other in our hearts, strong and burning bright. But it is the need to feel his touch that refrain me from having a good night sleep. Nothing beats the warmth he provide.
I still remember the first time when we were apart. I have to attend my work duty in China for two weeks. During that period, we communicate thru MSN Video Calls and Overseas Calls. I try to complete my job ASAP so that I can cut short the trip, and I gladly managed to. Work schedule was packed and tiring but definitely sweet, as I know my ultimate goal is to surprise him, by returning to Singapore the night before his KL trip. It was the goal that makes me feel his strong presence beside me all the time, and I tried make him feel the same with surprise MMS pictures and videos (I hope it did).
The second time we were apart was when I had to fulfil my NS Reservice duty. It's the pictures in my phone and the nightly phone calls that put the smile on my face. But nothing beats his sudden surprise for me on my Night's Off.
Calen, I love you deep from my heart. You never never fail to put a smile on my plain looking face and keep my imperfect soul warm.
Coming into terms with Me (missing you so much), (being able to relate) Myself (to the lyrics of the Micheal Bolton song) and I (can't wait for him to return,hee)
Singing to my latest lullaby: Michael Bolton - Missing You Now
I talk to you but it’s not the same as touchin’ you
And every time you whisper my name, I wanna run to you
We’ll be together, it won’t be long, it won’t be long
But it feels like forever, and it’s hard to be strong
Baby ’cause I’m missing you now
And it’s drivin’ me crazy
How I’m needin’ you baby
I’m missing you now
Can’t wait till I’m alone with you
To show you how I’m missing you now
Wishin’ you were here by my side is all that I can do
Got my arms around my pillow at night, they should be
Holdin’ you
Thought I was stronger, how could I know, how could
I know
I can’t take this much longer, it’s so hard on my soul
Baby I just can’t wait, till I see your face
Chase away this loneliness inside
When you’re close to my heart, right here in my arms
Then and only then, will I be satisfied
I’m missing you now
We’ll be together, it won’t be long, it won’t be long
But it feels like forever, and it’s hard to be strong
Saturday, September 15, 2007
(Issue 71) Future Bf/Husband Wish List
When you are single, do you have a list of criteria for your next boyfriend? And during this period of time, you start rejecting groups and groups of guys that walk pass you, thinking that you shouldn't settle for less to achieve happiness. But a sudden unexpected attraction changes your routine of men rejection.
You couldn't help to wonder what is it in him that attracts you, especially when he possess some of No-No's in your next-boyfriend-to-be list. For my case, he is a friend of my closest friends, other than that he was perfect, and still is. But for him, and almost 50% of the AJs in Singapore, I guess I am not one the top choices of best candidate for future husband-to-be.
This made me wonder how lucky can one person be. Could it be fate that he choose to try things out with me? We had actually come across each other life so many times and I am glad we had come one full circle to be together, rather than never together. We were from the same school, went on a group holiday together in Bangkok (around two to three years ago) and coincident enough we were both in HK weeks before we were dating.
Whether it is luck, fate or hard work, I will treasure him more than anything else and I hope slowly I achieve more and more ticks on his "Wish List"/Criteria List, but at the same time still being who I really am, only because I know for sure a person can't act who he is not for his entire life and be happy at the same time.
Oh yah, I remember a quote mentioned by Morgan Freeman who acted as 'God' in 'Evan Almighty'; "When people pray for patience? Does God give them patience? No, He gives them the opportunity to be patient."
I am glad that I took the opportunity to love when I asked for it. Coming into terms with (Thankfully) Me, (glad for) Myself and I (wish he feel the same too).
Dancing to the song from: Shayne Ward - That's My Goal
You know where I come from. You know my story
You know why I'm standing here. Tonight
Please don't go. Don't be in a hurry
I'm here to make it clear. Make it right
Well I know I've acted foolish. But I promise you no more
I've finally found that something. Worth reaching for
I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal
Please don't go
You know that I need you. I can't breathe without you
Live without you. Be without you
Well I know I've acted foolish. But I promise you no more. No more
Well I won't stop believing. That we will be leaving together
So when I say I love you. I'll mean it forever and ever. Ever and ever
You couldn't help to wonder what is it in him that attracts you, especially when he possess some of No-No's in your next-boyfriend-to-be list. For my case, he is a friend of my closest friends, other than that he was perfect, and still is. But for him, and almost 50% of the AJs in Singapore, I guess I am not one the top choices of best candidate for future husband-to-be.
This made me wonder how lucky can one person be. Could it be fate that he choose to try things out with me? We had actually come across each other life so many times and I am glad we had come one full circle to be together, rather than never together. We were from the same school, went on a group holiday together in Bangkok (around two to three years ago) and coincident enough we were both in HK weeks before we were dating.
Whether it is luck, fate or hard work, I will treasure him more than anything else and I hope slowly I achieve more and more ticks on his "Wish List"/Criteria List, but at the same time still being who I really am, only because I know for sure a person can't act who he is not for his entire life and be happy at the same time.
Oh yah, I remember a quote mentioned by Morgan Freeman who acted as 'God' in 'Evan Almighty'; "When people pray for patience? Does God give them patience? No, He gives them the opportunity to be patient."
I am glad that I took the opportunity to love when I asked for it. Coming into terms with (Thankfully) Me, (glad for) Myself and I (wish he feel the same too).
Dancing to the song from: Shayne Ward - That's My Goal
You know where I come from. You know my story
You know why I'm standing here. Tonight
Please don't go. Don't be in a hurry
I'm here to make it clear. Make it right
Well I know I've acted foolish. But I promise you no more
I've finally found that something. Worth reaching for
I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal
Please don't go
You know that I need you. I can't breathe without you
Live without you. Be without you
Well I know I've acted foolish. But I promise you no more. No more
Well I won't stop believing. That we will be leaving together
So when I say I love you. I'll mean it forever and ever. Ever and ever
Monday, September 10, 2007
(Issue 70) My Human Umbrella
In this modern city, everyone should had experienced office polities, book-lickers, back-stabbers, apple-polisher etc etc. Therefore hasn't it become vital for everyone to be fully armored to survive in this harsh world as everyone is working forward to their own best interest? Slowly this had become our way of life, however how long could we put on this strong front and be ourselves? Is the 14 off days a year enough?
I am glad that I had found a place where I could run to and feel safe everyday. Deep in the arms or Calen, I could strip myself "naked" (from the amour) and be vulnerable; breathe without worrying about any hidden agenda from anyone. His arms is stronger than any armour and the warmth he provides block me from any strong and unpredictable cold wind. It has become a place I could build/charge myself up again and face the world with a brave and strong front.
I gotta say that with him around, it doesn't matter how tired work can be, as the thought of being able to see him after work relives the stress and recharges my mind and soul.
It is also that sudden message I received in the middle of the hectic work day that boast me up and make all my worries disappear. No matter how corny the message could be to others, it is simply sweet and charming.
I can't say enough thank you, hence I wouldn't also take things for granted. I promise to do the same for you. Dear, I will let my actions show my love for you like you did for me and I hope I doing it well. Smiles.
Coming to terms with (Having an umbrella over)Me, (able to relax) Myself (everyday) and I (love you Calen).
Dancing to the Happy tune of: Christina Aguilera - Ain't No Other Man
"I could feel it from the start,
Couldn't stand to be apart.
Something about you caught my eye,
Something moved me deep inside!
Don't know what you did boy but
You had it and I've been hooked ever since."
I am glad that I had found a place where I could run to and feel safe everyday. Deep in the arms or Calen, I could strip myself "naked" (from the amour) and be vulnerable; breathe without worrying about any hidden agenda from anyone. His arms is stronger than any armour and the warmth he provides block me from any strong and unpredictable cold wind. It has become a place I could build/charge myself up again and face the world with a brave and strong front.
I gotta say that with him around, it doesn't matter how tired work can be, as the thought of being able to see him after work relives the stress and recharges my mind and soul.
It is also that sudden message I received in the middle of the hectic work day that boast me up and make all my worries disappear. No matter how corny the message could be to others, it is simply sweet and charming.
I can't say enough thank you, hence I wouldn't also take things for granted. I promise to do the same for you. Dear, I will let my actions show my love for you like you did for me and I hope I doing it well. Smiles.
Coming to terms with (Having an umbrella over)Me, (able to relax) Myself (everyday) and I (love you Calen).
Dancing to the Happy tune of: Christina Aguilera - Ain't No Other Man
"I could feel it from the start,
Couldn't stand to be apart.
Something about you caught my eye,
Something moved me deep inside!
Don't know what you did boy but
You had it and I've been hooked ever since."
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