I am aware of my unfair actions to push you to the limits, and have a ridiculous thought that you would still be all for me after pushing you off the cliff. I hope you don't see it as if I push you off the cliff but instead I prevented you from falling into my bottomless pit. I did not want to start a relationship without confidence it would turn fruitful. I did not want you to suffer another lost so quickly after you put your heart into it. Sorry, I may sound fake and pretentious, I just care too much to hurt you.
Nete, I might be returning to Singapore for good, and I thought "Why not give this relationship another chance". However, I know that this chance is no longer up to me to decide. Therefore, I messaged you for a possible chance to meet, but was rejected due to another high possibility to feel hurt again by me, you 'postpone' it to an infinite date. I then told the last chance by telling you I have something important to tell you, and you laughed in your response. From this laughter, I could see that you are covering for the hurt I gave or you want to avoid talking.
Nete, I have learned that you closed your doors and it is also time for me to close mine. Although we never end up as a couple, I shall say that you had and always been good to me, regardless of the countless unpleasant experience I throw to you. Thank you and I am forever sorry. I hope that you would find someone more worth falling in love than me. Hopefully one day when we meet again, we can be friends lending support to one another and not acquaintance.
Coming to terms with (deep from my heart, I hope you could understand my actions and forgive)Me, (couldn't even make peace with)Myself and (will learn to closed this door and move on)I.
Singing out loud to: Christina Aguilera - Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
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