(Issue 29) To Be or not To Be

We know that Love can either make or break a person and very often we meet our friends to share the experience of the "unworthy" man who once brought us down to the knees, sometimes with tears and sorrows. However it is still our choice to either hang on it or to end it, as friends could only offer a shoulder to lean on and give advises that most probably falls into deaf ears.

This moment had befall onto me once in my life, I learned a valuable lesson, and remember never to have my knees anywhere near the ground for a man. Am I a selfish person? To me, my basic condition for a relation is satisfying each others mutual emotional need, without having either party to suffer just to dreadfully maintain a relationship.

From then onwards I became I am emotionally strong and arrogant enough to never let a man have such effect one me, and I would shut off possibilities if I know that a possibly unfruitful relation is about to begin. Do I love myself too much to let the possibilities hurt me? Then again, why go through a relationship when you do not even have the faith in yourself that it will last, only to hurt yourself again?

I believe in instant attractions and chance meetings. Love seem to be so real, ridiculous, consuming and can't-live-without-each-other when you are together. But what matters most is that, do you see yourselves holding hands, working things out, going through tough obstacles while meeting each other emotional needs? Basically, do you have the faith in yourself not to hurt either party or do you think that infatuation is sufficient enough to bring you through every obstacles in life.

I believe, sometimes we have to learn to let go early, leave when things have not turn sour and when there are still presence of beautiful memories, because you never know, maybe one day with a twist of fate, someone or something might bring you together again at a better timing in life.

Love, for me, is as simple as to know that " the one you love will never be hurt by you, and is someone you will go through anything for without hurting yourself." Loving someone does not always means hanging on to him, sometimes we have to learn to let go at the right moment. There is no right or wrong in a relation, it takes two to clap and it also takes two to experience the love within each others heart.

Coming to terms with (arrogant) Me, (preventing) Myself (from getting emotionally bruised) and I (hope you can understand).

Lying on my bed singing to the tune of: 莫文蔚 - 盛夏的果实
" 也许放弃, 才能靠近你, 不再见你, 你才会把我记起 "
" 我要试着离开你, 不要再想你, 虽然这并不是我本意 "
" 别用沉默, 再去掩饰什么, 当结果是那么赤裸裸 "
" 其实不用说什么, 才能离开我, 起码那些经过 属于我 "
" 我以为不露痕迹, 思念却满溢, 或许这代表我的心,
如果你会梦见我, 请你再抱紧我 "

Translation: The Fruits of Midsummer - "Maybe I've to give up to get you near, as You'd recall me if I no longer see you."
"I'll try to leave you, and miss you no more, though not my intention at all."
"Never does silence veil over,When the outcome is painfully bare."
"There is no need to say anything before you leave my world. At least I have those experiences still kept in my mind."
"I thought I left no traces, but my heart brims with yearning, maybe this represent what my heart is feeling. If I show up in your dreams, please hold me tight again."