Sometimes I feel so sick and tired of starting a relationship, not because I am loving the fact that I am single, but because my three past relations begins three days after we first met, someone whom I do not know well enough yet. Could a rush start lead to a short relation?
Will love last longer when we are with someone whom we know well, someone who has already opened up his life to you and someone you can be yourself and feel comfortable with farting in the same room, instead of an instant attraction?
I had cultivated a work nature, whereby I love to take on unknown and new challenges, and commit my whole self into making it work, regardless of the number of compromises and efforts I will have to make instead of backing out. Could I had subconscious cultivate it my love life too? Would a relation be easier if I had start in a different way, as emotions and feelings are involve in relationships unlike work?
I couldn't help but to think that relationships that started out as friends would last longer as the decision to be part of each other life is base on the understanding each other needs and demands, likes and dislike and the irresistible intimate feeling of having to hug one another to protect them from anything harsh, instead of sex.
A foundation is build between friends, a support that can be felt from each other and a care and concern we provide as friends. The love would be stronger as you realised that the compromises and time you are willing to give is even more than when you were just friends.
Every touch would have a stronger feeling and passion as you had longed for this moment to come. It would be hard to explain the difference (comparing a kiss to someone your just met and someone you knew and longed to kissed) in words, as it is an feeling that runs through your veins to your heart. It is an explosion and a rush of blood that we normally seen in movies, just like hugging someone you love deeply but had lost touch for years. You could feel that the wait is worth every moment, unlike any other hug or kiss from a stranger, which might lead to just an ONS. The desire for one another would be stronger, and therefore brings you to a different height in your relation. It is like getting something you thought was unreachable.
I say this is to acknowledge my need for a strong foundation before I step in again, I want to be love by someone knows me from within, instead of an instant attraction. Someone who loves for all my flaws and Someone whom I I feel comfortable opening up my heart to.
Never rush into love as it is the fruits from the tree you planted from day one that tastes the best, because in every bite, you could taste your sweat tear, blood, efforts and labor. It is a wait worth waiting for.
Coming to terms with (longing to love for the inner) Me, (lusting the inner him and not the outer shell) Myself and (nourishing my plant by the day before the bite) I.
Listening to: Vanessa Hudgens - Don't Talk
"Oh boy, You've got to be patient with me
Oh Boy, I wanna get to know you much better
Let's start it out being friends for awhile
You hold my eye when I first saw ur smile.
Oh boy, This could really turn into something
Oh boy, That's why I don?t wanna rush it."
"I know it feel that this is real
But I need sometime to see
If ur gonna be the one for me"
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Why not just allow yourself to go with the flow? Sometimes, when the more you exert control, the lesser surprise it will sprung on you. (Me and him talked on the phone for more than 6 months before we decided to meet and a week after we met for the first time, we fell in love and it has been 8 years since and still counting.)
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